A Note of Thoughts

I've done what I can, and I did what I did
Stayed too long and now I am overdone
Broken, breaking, broken again and breaking down
Peace comes soon in this world, it will be mine

Moment my moment I plot and plan
Weaving the webs to afford my son the best
Soon none of you will remember or care
Many will hate me anyway and I send them love

Stand by idly and watch me crack over time
Unvalidated by being unkind to me gets you far
Take what you want and I will keep what I can
You have drained me all away, the carcass remains

Much like the soul leaves a relationship first
It took me nine months to work my way out
Only to find that there's nothing left of me
It's sad to say, but I let your negativity win

One soul knows what is on my mind right now
To him I say, "Thank you and Goodbye"
Maybe I didn't have enough medication today
Maybe tomorrow will be different, then guilt remains

How can something so wrong and final feel right
Peacefulness at a decision based on a deep fear
I am done being scared all of the time, tired & afraid
Nothing seems to be able to remedy this shitty lemonade